"What happened on the France tour?" I’ve
lost track of how many times I’ve been asked that
in the last couple weeks! So I’ll do my best to
put into words something that often went beyond description
and was, of course, different for every person present.
Arriving
in Marseille, my heart leaped at seeing the Mediterranean
Sea for the first time. I can’t describe what
I felt, other than such a sense of familiarity. Tobias
has talked in the past about how water carries so much
consciousness, and I could really feel it there.
It
was a beautiful cloudless day, but as soon as Shaumbra
started arriving, the wind picked up with amazing force.
Later we learned it was the Mistral
winds that sometimes blow through the area, but I just
figured it was the Shaumbra energy arriving and clearing
things out!
The
first three days of the tour we stayed near Saintes
Maries de la Mer, a town steeped in the energy and
mythology of Mary Magdalene, Mary Jacobe and Mary Solome.
When we went to town the first day I headed straight
for the sea, going as far out as possible on a jetty,
to just be with it for a while. I sat and breathed for
a long time and eventually noticed a brilliant reflection
of electric blue light in the water just in front of
me. It was almost as bright as the sunlight reflection,
but a vivid blue. There was nothing I could see to cause
this, but it was as if there was a neon blue light hovering
above the water but only the reflection of
it was visible.
After
lunch we met at the fortified church in the middle of
the town. Going inside, I was almost overcome with all
the energies that I myself had poured into it over so
many lifetimes (not that specific place, but "the
church" in general), and in that moment I declared,
"It is enough. I'm done with this!" I invited
all the "church" parts of me to come home,
letting them know that their mission had been accomplished.
During
our tour, there would be a channel each morning and
then we would head out and visit some interesting place.
During one of the meetings Norma was invited to share
her story of Mary Magdalene. It was beautiful
and touching – and completely different than the
one that Tobias shares in his Sexual Energies School.
I began to realize a new level of what this integration
of light and dark was about, because both stories
were actually true, just told from completely different
perspectives. And I realized how the past, our own story,
is simply whatever we make of it in the remembering
and the telling. It is ALL true, we simply choose the
“facts” we want to focus on.
Another
day we went to the city of Arles, visiting an old Roman
amphitheater and another huge old church. The architecture
was amazing, and the ruins were quite interesting to
see in person, but the part I personally enjoyed the
most was going alone to an old cloister next to the
church. I walked into the enclosed area, a covered walkway
surrounded by pillars with a garden in the center, and
immediately felt completely at home. How many times
have I retreated into the sacredness and solitude of
cloisters, shutting out the world and turning inward?
I used to wonder why anyone would want to become a priest
or nun, but I imagine those were lifetimes chosen to
balance out the drama and the trauma of being on the
“other side of the fence” and hunted down
by the church!
In
Arles we also visited an ancient cemetery with a church
and smaller chapel that had simply exquisite acoustics!
One could sing a note in there and it would echo through
the chambers on and on. More than once someone would
begin toning and more Shaumbra would join in until the
walls fairly rang with our voices. What an experience…!
We
also visited the walled city of Carcassonne,
another place full of magic and history and countless
levels of energies to feel. Whether one had been there
in a past lifetime or not, you could certainly feel
so much that had taken place there.
After
three days we traveled to what would be our "home
base" for the remainder of the journey - the marvelous
Chateau
des Ducs castle! I loved staying there, and it was
in the castle and surrounding experiences that things
really got intense. First we went to market day in Limoux,
had lunch in a grand old hotel, then went to Rennes
les Bains. We hiked up to the "Chair
of Isis" and that was the first place where
I intimately knew I had been there before. It was very,
very real, not just the “idea” that I’d
been there before.
Hiking
up the trail, it was as if I knew every step of the
way. I kept hearing "This I know" deep inside,
and it was from thousands of years ago, long before
the Church was ever in the area. When the group stopped
at the chair, I scrambled on up the side of the mountain,
knowing there was more up there. Sure enough,
there were remnants of old walls and such. I could feel
exactly how they used to be, and even what was up at
the top of the hill. I felt that after spending a week
or two in that place, I could write a whole book about
what used to happen there. I have to say, life gets
really interesting when you allow yourself to feel its
many levels and layers!
The
next day we went to the village where Nostradamus lived.
We saw the outside of his old house with strange symbols
carved on the wooden beams, toured the ruins of an old
Abbey,
then went to a little place near the base of Mt. Bugarach,
called the "upside down mountain" because
the rocks on top are older than the rocks below. Apparently
there is a lot of UFO activity there and the government
keeps the area under constant surveillance. Interesting
place, and another I'd love to revisit.
The
next day was the biggie - visiting Montsegur,
the stronghold of the Cathars. Geoff reminded us to
simply feel whatever was there to feel, and to also
take note of whether we were feeling our own old stuff,
or simply the energies of the area. We got off the coach
and went up to the monument commemorating where the
Cathars who refused to recant their beliefs chose to
walk willingly into the fire. Lots to feel indeed…
We
spent a bit of time there, breathing and toning, then
made our way up the steep trail to the top. Along the
way, I encountered energies of some of the old Cathars
still coming down that trail, singing on their way to
the fire. It was actually their moment of spiritual
triumph and they were still reliving it, over and over.
I could feel their sense of victory over the world,
and how it actually created the paradox of them still
being stuck there. I also felt my own story from that
time, and it certainly wasn't what I “expected.”
We
stayed up there for an hour or two, eventually gathering
for some impromptu music with Gerhard and Einat. It
was very beautiful, and I know we left a blessing of
honor there. It was a place of both profound beauty
and extreme imbalance, for the Cathars were devoted
only to the light, forsaking all worldly experiences
and pleasure as products of the devil and darkness.
And of course this brought upon them a hideous experience
of the dark. We felt the very real impact of the separation
of light and dark, and understood more than ever why
we are now integrating it within ourselves.
Our
last day we went to Rennes
le Chateau, a place full of mystery. It would take
a book to tell all the puzzles and mysteries of this
place, most of which have never been solved. During
lunch we heard an interesting presentation by a real
Templar Knight, and later spent time visiting the various
buildings. In a glass house up on the wall, we had more
music and toning with Gerhard and Einat, a truly magical
experience.
That
evening was the last group gathering and channel with
Adamus and he finally told his version of the
story of Yeshua and Mary Magdalene. It was fascinating!
And at one point during that channel he climbed up on
top of the table, much to the amusement of everyone
else!
What
I have experienced during and after the tour is an incredible
opening of the floodgates of the past, and almost every
moment of sleep has been filled with dreams and memories.
I really understand now why we come in with the veil
of forgetfulness. What I remember and feel is but a
tiny fragment of my history, and it is already a challenge
to absorb and deal with so much.
And
oh yes, we took hundreds of pictures! There are now
two photo albums where you can see the places we visited
and the fun we had. Lots of pictures here Shaumbra
in France 1 and more pictures and even a couple
videos here Shaumbra
in France 2. And here you can see a lovely video
of the France
Tour that Geoff put together.
It’s
quite an amazing experience to revisit places and feelings
and times where history was made – and remember
ourselves there!
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